I think if you " like" the idea behind why the are doing what they are doing than actually liking what you are getting, it may be time to step a way for a while. Hard as that seems, with the 2 hiatuses and losing those years of what could have been, it may help cleanse your palate. being a " vet" jaded or otherwise is probably harder than actually being in the band in some ways. You have no control of what happens on the stage except whether or not you continue to show up to watch it. You have had your highest high and lowest lows withe the boys. You show up hoping to reach Clifford ball, cypress or Europe tour and you get something different and you feel like you got short changed because your wealth of experience tells you they can be much much better. (or much worse, LI 20th anniversary). Forgetting that why they are there and why you are there doesn't always mesh. Are you there for them or vice versa. Maybe both. Every show has peaks and valleys and with one of the most critical fan bases in the history of music the boys plow on thru. Giving someone of the legion what it wants with every note. And yet turning the most ardent supporter sour with opening notes of Show ( I had a good time, thank me with a rocker) but alas it's not our plane to fly, we can only speak of the turbulence or smoothness and the crew who pulled us into the landing. circumstances, time and experience have changed how each particular show is viewed and reviewed sometimes it's easy to demolish a whole show forgetting how great a segue or jam really was because bouncin was played right after. Just the same as praising a whole show pillar to post forgetting theY restarted the intro to fee because the rest was so magnificentst. In baseball hitting .300 gets you in the Hall of Fame, on a bad night the boys are .400 or better every time. Phish fans are the Yankees fans of rock n roll and taking home a trophy at the end of the night is the only accepted endgame. Sometimes playing well just isn't enough. I have been crushingly critical in the past (2.0 especially) but as I am now rounding into a more mature art absorber I find focusing on the highlights and not so much the missed opportunities to salvage the taste of what I know is the best music in the wide world. Truly enjoy the highs and forget whether or not bonnaroo is the dumbed down version or Worcester is a test run or AC night 2 is sure to be an all timer. The moments are there for the most part, if they aren't it's probably a good time to hit the bathroom and grab a water. The reason you keep coming is right around the corner